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My Daughter's Angelversary
(November5,2009)
I am going to your grave today, with flowers purple, pink and red. I'll throw away the faded ones and leave fresh ones instead. I'll stand above the place you lay, placed there a while ago. And once again my heart will break, and unchecked tears will flow. With gentle fingers I'll caress, your name carved in the stone. Then brush away the fallen leaves, the gentle winds have blown. I'll dry my eyes, I'll say a prayer, and as I raise my head. Another grieving mother has just tucked her child in bed.





My Daughter's Birthday
November 6,2009

This memorial was created in Loving Memory of our Precious Daughter and Beloved Sister Samantha Joy Sullivan. Who was born in South Carolina on November 6,1984. And was carelessly killed on November 5,2000 at the age of 15,the day before her Sweet 16th Birthday. We will remember her FOREVER!!!!


 Saturday November 4,2000, a big day in Sam's life. Her Sweet 16 Birthday Party. Everything was planned. The only thing left,was to decorate the building. Sam was so....happy and excited that morning. Although she was already overflowing with happiness from getting her licence the day before (Friday November 3,2000) It was a beautiful party. Around 10:00 most people started to leave. Sam wanted to sit up town with her boyfriend, Jeremy and her friends. That was fine since I was up there anyway. I only wish I had told her to come home 30 minutes earlier. Because I had only been home for about that lengh of time when I heard about the wreck.
 Sam and Jeremy were on their way to take someone they believed was sick, 20 miles away. At the time we had no rescue team in our little town(which sucks) because if we had ONE things would have been different.  SammyJo did what she believed in her heart was right. "OH Sam why didn't you OR Jeremy call me? Or someone!" Jeremy was driving at a high rate of speed and then a truck turned in front of them. WHY did he do this? I will never have all the answers to my questions!!!! Noone talked that night and they're still not talking!!!!
The man in the truck was NEVER charged nor will he ever BE!!!! Thanks to the police officers on the scene!!!! One of them left the department. I never found out where he went or why. But anyone can put two and two together and know why. As forJeremy and Erin, their lives were spared. Our Precious SammyJo,after being ejected was hit and ran over by Jeremy's car. We never got to see SAM, to kiss her beautiful face, to hold her in our arms one more time to Say Goodby!!!!


Help me keep my precious daughter's memory alive by liting a candle before you leave. THANKYOU.















Birthdays do not end with death, But last as long as love, A maelstrom of memories That grace and honor move. And so we celebrate your day By visiting your grave, A place that you have left long since, But is all that we have. Dear Sam, come join us here by your stone! Come sweep across the barrier To claim us as your own! Happy birthday, dearest one! Oh, happy, happy day! Not even the most bitter night Can take this joy away!






A Birthday In Heaven © 2005 Written by Kris Smith
I heard you crying yesterday And felt your heart-sent love So I’m sending you this message Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate My birthday (way up here) I know you’re missing me today I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me He told me with a wink He’d ordered me a special cake (It’s Angel food, I think)
I’m getting lots of hugs from God He’s really good at that And every time that I walk by He gives my head a pat
Balloons will fill the streets for me They float up through the clouds And we have lots of clowns up here That make us laugh out loud
There is a birthday carousel Jeweled horses ride the wind With music playing oh so sweet… The magic never ends
I’ve made so many friends, you see We laugh and play and sing We ride our bikes and play jump rope And sleep in Angel’s wings
We’ll have our cake and ice cream And open gifts, surprise!
But we don’t blow out our candles here Instead, they light the skies







 

   





I'm still here, though you don't see. I'm right by your side each night and day And within your heart I long to stay. My body is gone but I'm always near. I'm everything you feel, see or hear. My spirit is free, but I'll never depart As long as you keep me alive in your heart. I'll never wander out of your sight- I'm the brightest star on a summer night. I'll never be beyond your reach- I'm the warm moist sand when you're at the beach. I'm the colorful leaves when Autumn's around And the pure white snow that blankets the ground. I'm the beautiful flowers of which you're so fond, The clear cool water in a quiet pond. I'm the first bright blossom you'll see in the spring, The first warm raindrop that April will bring. I'm the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine, And you'll see that the face in the moon is mine. When you start thinking there's no one to love you, You can talk to me through the Lord above you. I'll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees, And you'll feel my presence in the soft summer breeze. I'm the hot salty tears that flow when you weep And the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep. I'm the smile you see on a baby's face. Just look for me, I'm every place! Author Unknown


Wanted You To Know......
I Was Sitting Here In Heaven And Having A Wonderful Day. I Started Thinking About You And All The Things I Didn’t Get A Chance To Say. I Don’t Want You To Worry About Me And Please Don’t Shed Any Tears, Because I Will Wait For You In Heaven, If It Takes A Hundred Years. Everything I Had On Earth I Have In Heaven Too! My First Day Here My Body Became Brand New. It Is Really Pretty Here And I Love My New Home, Although Your Heart Is Broken Because My Body Is Gone. My Love Will Always Be There As You Go Along The Way, Just Take A Peek Inside Your Heart There Is Where I’ll Stay. Know That I Loved My Family And All My Friends Too, My Thoughts Will Be With Each Of You Your Whole Life Through. ~ Author Unknown


 The cross painted on the Highway is long faded But that night is permently painted in my mind FOREVER!
 When I held you in my arms that night, I wish I had held you tighter and never let you go. If only....I had known!
When I kissed your check and whispered "I love you", I didn't know it would be the last time I would hold your face close to mine. If only....I had known! When I watched you walk away, I wish I had called you back and never let you go. If only....I had known!
 Samantha,I LOVE YOU! So MUCH!!!! My heart hurts and aches with pain I MISS YOU SO.............................!





*Please visit Samantha's other websites
*And please sign her Guestbooks *Thankyou
http://www.sam15.bravehost.com
http://sammyjo2000.piczo.com (New)
http://www.missingsam.last-memories.com (New)
(Scholarship Page)
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Is moving to:
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Email me if you would like your Angel added
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Please visit:
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And leave a candle message for Samantha






A Special Angel There's a special angel in Heaven That is a part of me. It is not where I wanted her, But where God wanted her to be. She was here just a moment, Like a night time shooting star. And though she is in Heaven She isn't very far. She touched the hearts of many, Like only an angel can do. I would've held her every minute, If the end I only knew. So I send this special message To Heaven up above. Please take care of my angel, And send her all my love ~ unknown ~


AN ANGEL YOU ARE... ~SAMANTHA JOY~
In the tiny patter of raindrops outside the window, In the beaming sunshine after the rain In the rainbow on its majestic trip to heaven, You are there - Sam
In the little troubles we face each day In making our life unimaginable without your presence In the tiny surprises of each day You are there - Sam
Your smile, your laugh, your love and your light Shines through all of us as never before. Our steps are measured and guided because An Angel You Are - Sam
Thankyou Lisa!


They say there is a reason, They say that time will heal, But neither time nor reason, Will change the way we feel, For no-one knows the heartache, That lies behind our smiles, No-one knows how many times, We have broken down and cried, We want to tell you something, So there won't be any doubt, You're so wonderful to think of, But so hard to be without Winter comes & the snow may fall, But if you look carefully you will see Tiny Angel footprints in the snow ~ can you see. These tiny footprints are there just so you know, When you close your eyes & think of me, I will be there in a split second for you to see. This is my way of letting you know I am still around, for all to see Because you all loved me so. That is why, I have come back to let you know, I am safe in the arms of the Angel Who is craddling me.
 The Angels Did the angels come from heaven To help you through that night Did they feel your terror And take away your fright Did the angels bear the pain That was being done to you Did they hear your cries of fear And stay to help you through Did the angels hold you tightly The way I would have done Did they know how I would feel And wish they were the one Did the angels cry out loudly For the unjustness of your plight Did they call Lord Jesus And lead you to the light Did the angels softly kiss your cheek Before you took your leave Did they remind you how I loved you so And forever more I’d grieve Did the angels whisper in your ear Don’t worry you will not go alone Did they know part of me when with you The day God called you home




Samantha
I thought my world had ended the day that I lost you I felt no reason to go on but then thought yes I do. I have a family and my friends that mean so much to me And I want the world to know your lovely memory.
You know I love you very much and I miss you so You're such a lovely daughter and I'll never let you go. I hold each memory in my heart and forever they will stay I'll remember you with loving thoughts each and every day.
Now you're in Heaven with beautiful gossamer wings With splender and peasefulness that our Lord brings. Although our hearts are broken our love will never cease. Knowing you're with our Lord brings our hearts some pease.
You're free to sour through Heaven and the skies above Remembering friends and family with your precious love. One day we'll be together when our souls are free Seperated never more for eternity.
(This poem was written for Sam by a wonderful lady, Diane) Thankyou! http://jeannehouseofangels.com/samantha.html
 Taken Approx. 3 hours and 20 min. before our Precious Daughter was carelessly killed 10 hours and 40 min Sam would have been Sweet 16





 This was in her school's annual







 My Life Was Stolen
My life was stolen, gone in a flash You all will NEVER know all she was to me.
My life was stolen yes it was. You all see me breathing,talking, sleeping, but I swear to you I'm gone.
My life was stolen. Don't you see? Without my Sammy whole I will Never be.
My life was stolen with that truck, My life devastated, without any luck.
My life was stolen can't you see?!? Without my Sammy I'm barely a small fraction of who I used to be. written by holly



The pain fills my today and tomorrows, the loss of a child is the most painful of all sorrows. I struggle to find the strength to face another day, I look at pictures, remember her face. fall on my knees and pray. I hear the same question over and over in my mind: Why? I hide my face in my pillow, think of my Sam, heart breaking as I cry. I seach for answer from books as well as from God above. I try to reach out to friends, for comfort and for love. My arms once held this wonderful little girl, Oh, what I wouldn't give for just one more day of joy. How could I have known that she would leave before me? This just isn't the way LIFE is suppose to be. I will keep working through this new experience of grief. She will always be my sunshine, though her life was too brief. I don't know how long this journey could last, I try to look to the future, but long to stay in my past. As time goes on I pray the pain will become familiar to me until I can join my daughter Sam, for all eternity.




Made by:Dawn Michael'sMom http://michael-luteljr.memory-of.com





 

Sammy and Me
You and I started bonding from the very start I looked into you beautiful eyes and you stole my heart. I knew from that moment that it was meant to be That we would always be together, my Sammy and me.
We started our lives together in nineteen eighty four And as I gazed into your face, I couldn't love you more. My little baby daughter grew into what should be A beautiful young lady, that's what Sammy was to me.
I knew your future was so bright, a life so full of love But God stepped in and called you home to Heaven up above. My life I felt stopped that night, the future would not be But I will hold all the memories of my Sammy and me.
Now you are an angel with wings so you can soar Fly my angel through the skies til we meet at Heaven's door. The day will come when we will be together for eternity We will fly the skies together, my Sammy and me Written by: Dianne May God Bless You! http://www.jeanneshouseofangels.com/Sammyandme.html




 Some days I just pretend that you're not gone. Then other days, I feel I can't go on. People say it's time to let go and start my life without you. But I'm weak and I don't know what to do. God! How long will the pain last? How many tears have I already cried? It seems just like yesterday that my world fell apart, When my lil SammyJo died!!!!










This is Sam's little teddy She slept with it every night, Now....I can't sleep without it.
 Hold your loved ones close! Don't let a day go by without telling them just how much you love and care for them! There are so many Families out there that are not close.I am so glad my Family is close. There are a lot of hugs and I love you's everyday. That's just the way we are. After losing Sam though, I still feel I could have said more and done more. 
I found this poem,I thought I would share it with you. ..........................................................................................................
Tomorrow Never Comes
IF I KNEW IT WOULD BE THE LAST TIME THAT I'D SEE YOU FALL ASLEEP, I WOULD TUCK YOU IN MORE TIGHTLY AND PRAY THE LORD,YOUR SOUL TO KEEP. IF I KNEW IT WOULD BE THE LAST TIME THAT I SEE YOU WALK OUT THE DOOR, I WOULD GIVE YOU A HUG AND KISS AND CALL YOU BACK FOR MORE. IF I KNEW IT WOULD BE THE LAST TIME I'D HERE YOUR VOICE LIFTED UP IN PRAISE, I WOULD VIDEO EACH ACTION AND WORD, SO THAT I COULD REPLAY IT BACK DAY BY DAY. IF I KNEW IT WOULD BE THE LAST TIME, I WOULD SPARE AN EXTRA MINUTE OR TWO TO STOP AND SAY"I LOVE YOU", INSTEAD OF ASSUMING,THAT YOU KNOW I DO. IF I KNEW IT WOULD BE THE LAST TIME, I WOULD BE THERE TO SHARE YOUR DAY, BUT I'M SURE YOU'LL HAVE SO MANY MORE, SO I CAN JUST LET THIS ONE SLIP AWAY. FOR SURELY THERE'S A TOMORROW TO MAKE UP FOR AN OVERSITE, AND WE ALWAYS GET ANOTHER CHANCE TO MAKE EVERYTHING RIGHT. THERE WILL ALWAYS BE ANOTHER DAY TO SAY OUR "I LOVE YOU'S" AND CERTAINLY THERE'S ANOTHER CHANCE TO SAY OUR "ANYTHING I CAN DO'S?" BUT JUST IN CASE I MIGHT BE WRONG, AND TODAY IS ALL I GET,I'D LIKE TO SAY HOW MUCH "I LOVE YOU" AND HOPE YOU NEVER FORGET. TOMORROW IS NOT PROMISED TO ANYONE, YOUNG AND OLD ALIKE,AND TODAY MAYBE THE LAST CHANCE YOU GET TO HOLD YOUR LOVED ONES TIGHT. SO IF YOU'RE WAITING FOR TOMORROW, WHY NOT DO IT TODAY? FOR IF TOMORROW NEVER COMES, YOU'LL SURELY REGRET THE DAY. THAT YOU DIDN'T TAKE THAT EXTRA TIME FOR A SMILE, A HUG,A KISS AND YOU WERE TOO BUSY TO GRANT SOMEONE,WHAT TURNED OUT TO BE THEIR LAST WISH. SO HOLD YOUR LOVED ONES CLOSE TODAY, WHISPER IN THEIR EAR, TELL THEM HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM AND THAT YOU'LL ALWAYS HOLD THEM DEAR. TAKE THE TIME TO SAY "I'M SORRY", PLEASE FORGIVE ME. "THANK YOU" OR "IT'S OKAY." AND IF TOMORROW NEVER COMES, YOU'LL HAVE NO REGRETS ABOUT TODAY.




One of Sam's favotite Hymn's Amazing Grace



Samantha and her Daddy 1998 At our Daughter Crystal's wedding

 Also made by Dianne(Thankyou)
A DAD'S GRIEF It must be very difficult to be a man in grief since men don't cry and men are strong no tears can bring relief.
It must be very difficult to stand up to the test and take the calls and visitors so she can get some rest
They always ask if she's all right and what she's going through but seldom take his hand and ask "My friend, but how are you?"
He hears her crying in the night and thinks his heart will break he dries her tears and comforts her but stays strong for her sake
It must be very difficult to start each day anew and try to be so very brave He lost his baby too. -Anonymous-

Not long after we lost Samantha, a friend of my oldest Daughter wrote a song for Sam. "I'll See You Again" Shortly after it was put on their newest CD. Thank You! Ricky & Beverly
 "I'LL See YOU AGAIN" " Verse" #1 I can still remember you as though you were standing here. Your smiling face your warm embrace,it's all so very clear. And though the pain is hard to bear, I know what I must do. By holding to the Father's hand, He'll lead me straight to you. "Chorus" I'll see you again and we'll walk hand in hand. To share the home prepared for you and me. I'll see you again and this time it won't end. I'm holding on, it won't be long til I see you again. "Verse" #2 I know I may not understand just why you had to go. But there are things in my life not meant for me to know. As I struggle through my tears, I'm starting now to see. The Father cares enough to ask where will I spend eternity? "Chorus" I'll see you again and we'll walk hand in hand To share the home prepared for you and me. I'll see you again and this time it won't end. I'm holding on, it won't be long til I see you again.


 Sad are the hearts that loved you, Silent are the tears that fall, Living our lives without you, Is the hardest part of all!!!!

Forever 15 Sweet Daughter of mine The years go by But in my heart You will always be Forever 15  On the night God took you I thought I would die! I wondered where the time went? I asked alot of whys?? With people all around me I felt alone inside From all their words of comfort, I couldn't see to hide. I thought I might be dreaming That I'd wake and find you here, I thought"This can't be happing!" As I wiped another tear. On the day you were laid to rest My heart broke yet again, I wondered if the pain would end, But mostly I wondered when?? It's hard to be without you At times the days seem long Sometimes I just sit crying. When their's really nothing wrong. I wish we'd had more time, Before your life was done. I hope you are resting peasefully My precious one.


Forever Sisters Sam Missy Crystal Miranda
 Sisters
I may not be by your side like I used to be But I'm forever in your heart when you think of me. I'll always cherish the bonds that kept us near For to me, my sisters, you are so very dear.
Although I am in Heaven, my heart is filled with love And I still watch over you from my new home up above. Sisters have a special bond that nothing will ever break So think of me with happiness , not with heartache.
There will come a time that we will meet once more We'll walk around Heaven, just us sisters four. Until that time please live your life as best as can be Fill your heart with all the good memories of me.
I'm happy here in Heaven, for I am flying free Angels are all around and keep me company. Until the day we meet again, in Heaven I will wait And when it's time to see me, I'll greet you at the gate.
Written By Diane





You were a tiny Blessing we could not wait to meet, A miracle from God above to make our family complete. And Oh how you were pampered right from the start. You were loved with all our hearts. Everyday we considered you a special gift and counted memories one by one. We cherished every moment and we want you to always know how much real joy you brought into our lives. We love you so....
Love, Mama & Daddy

 A Letter From Aunt Sam
I'm writing you this letter From my home in Heaven above. To Josh,Matt, Anna and Alli I'm sending you my love.
For my nephews Josh and Matt Your Aunt Sam misses you. And to sweet Anna and Alli I love and miss you too.
I'm so proud to be your Aunt You're as precious as can be. And even though I'm in Heaven You mean the world to me.
Watch for signs that I send Signs that you can't miss. Like a breeze on your cheeks Will be my angel kiss.
A butterfly with wings of gold Flying high above. Will be sent by your Aunt Sam Just to bring you love.
And if you hear the wind at night No need to wonder why. For it will be your Aunt Sam Singing you a lullaby.
My darling nieces and nephews Remember who I am. For I will always be Your loving Aunt Sam.
Poem written for my daughter by Dianne http://www.jeanneshouseofangels.com/ http://jeanne_ketcham.memory-of.com To see this poem with music, go to http://www.jeanneshouseofangels.com/Auntsam.html


If Tears Could Build A Stairway
 If tears could build a stairway and memories were a lane We would walk right up to heaven Ang bring you back again. No farewell words were spoken No time to say goodbye You were gone before we knew it And only God knows why Our hearts still ache in sadness and secret tears still flow What it meant to lose you No one will ever know But now we know you want us To mourn for you no more To remember all the happy times Life still has much in store Since you'll never be forgotten We pledge to you today A cherished place within our heart Is where you'll always stay

 Beyond
How do I see beyond the pain? Jesus show me how I cannot see the future All I see is now Take this pain and turn it Into a precious stone Please give my life a purpose Until you take me home. The path along the valley, is full of dark despair, sometimes I feel the heartache is more than I can bear Oh! Jesus bring me comfort Your neverending pease That comforts me,and helps to bring the brokenness to cease.
 The Angels are always near to those who are grieving, To whisper to them that their loved ones are safe in the hands of God. ~Eileen Elias Freeman~
 I Will Remember You
 When I look out over the ocean A place you loved to be I will remember you
 The times we cried The times we fought The times we laughed I will remember you
 Your hopes,your dreams What you wanted to do And what you wanted to become I will remember you
How you brushed your hair from your face How you walked and the smell of your perume I will remember you
 The gleam in your eyes when you were happy Your laughter,Oh so loud and sweet Your beautiful face and big loving smile I will remember you
 Always in my thoughts,my precious memories Always in my heart and soul FOREVER! I will remember you!
Forever Sam's Mama (2-13-05)
 Dear God Dear God,please let me know you are holding Samantha in your arms Something I long to do with all my heart. Please let me know that you kiss her goodnight, tuck her in and say "Sleep Tight,I love you." Something I will never be able to do again. Dear God, please tell me you were by her side as she lay on that cold wet pavement that night. Did she call out my name? Did she suffer? Please God,I have to know! And please God tell me why she had to go! Dear God,please tell me, my SammyJo is again whole. This is something I cannot bare! Please tell me she is as beautiful as she was when I watched her walk down the path away from me. Dear God, please help me find a way to go on and take the anger from my heart. Please God help the one who was in the wrong, that someday he can come to me with two small words,"I'm sorry." Then maybe I can somewhat begin to heal from that anger in my heart. Dear God,give me peace She loved him with all her heart and for that I loved him too. Please God, tell me he loved her back just as much and the rumors are not true. I cannot live like this anymore,not knowing the truth. The pain is hard enough to bare without my precious Sam. Please Dear God, put just a little light at the end of the rainbow, just for me!








Mama did you think of me today? Mama did you cry? Mama I know that it is hard for you And can’t understand why Mama please don’t be angry with God It was time for me to leave I know that there are questions And answers you can’t believe But know Mama I’m okay And never left your side Can you here the things I say? Can you find the things I hide? The only thing I cannot take away Is the pain that your heart feels So I asked the Lord for just one wish To help your heart to heal He told me to think carefully About what I could say or do To show how much you mean to me And how much I miss you too I thought of all the little things That used to make us laugh I thought of all the prayers you have Just to have me back I knew just what my wish would be It was there in front of me A beautiful Dove God had gave to me To show me of his love I whispered to the Dove I told him how to find you I placed him on a rainbow So Mama when you think of me And cannot bare the pain Look for the gift I sent you And allow my memory to remain I am in every laugh you have In every hug you share I am the one who knows your soul And want you Mama to let go Take with you the memories Of the life you made And remember I never meant to Cause you so much pain So when you need to feel my touch Or to know I’m still there Find the gift I sent from above And see in it all my love When you see a feather on the ground Know that I am still around….







I am wearing a pair of shoes. They are ugly shoes. Uncomfortable shoes. I hate my shoes. Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair. Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step. Yet, I continue to wear them. I get funny looks wearing these shoes. They are looks of sympathy. I can tell in other's eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs. They never talk about my shoes. To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable. To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them. But, once you put them on, you can never take them off. I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes. There are many pairs in this world. Some women are like me and ache daily as they try to walk in them. Some have learned how to walk in them so that they don't hurt quite so much. Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt. No woman deserves to wear these shoes. Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman. These shoes have given me the strength to face anything. They have made me who I am. I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.



 "Thankyou Darla"





There is a Christmas Stocking hanging,In Loving Memory of Samantha at memorialstockings.html

I would like to say a big THANKYOU to all the Angel Moms that have made beautiful graphics for me. Your kindness has been overwhelming. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you always. When I am not using a graphic on her websites, they will all be on her new graphics page.
http://sammyjo.bravehost.com/graphics.html (I am still working on it)




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